That's enough

MY heart has been broken. There. I said it. It's over and done with.

Guess who's a homo???

Clay Aiken.
Hah. Seems like he was the last one to get the memo :]
Of course, he was on the front page of People, like Lance. Big difference though, Bass was cute...Clay's baby is ugly >>

Anyways. What else is there to talk about...? OH! Lindsey Lohan is a lesbian! She has a girlfriend named Sam, I think. That was pretty interesting. That's about it though.

Hmm...Damn, I'm out of things to talk about. OH! Well, Homecoming was fun :] Kailey and I had dindin at Taco Bell, which was awesome. Then we went to that park by Sam P's house...Aberdeen? I don't know. It was pretty interesting though. Oh, and I'm soooo happy Marissa won :] That was so great! She really deserved it ;]

I really want to talk to someone...damn them...you can't take my fire away from me! I Was here first! BAH! just because they are new and shiny, they'll get all the attention. No, I kid. I don't even know what or who I'm talking about. Hah.

I will get some sort of award this year, I promise you this!! Someone will say my name. Gr. I'm bored. I need friends who like me. Hahaha.

You know what I've noticed though? If I put an interesting title and a boring note, I get a lot of comments? Interesting, no? AND OH MY GOSH! I pumped some lotion, and it made a heart!! I was really excited :]

I'm going to go look something up on wiki so I have something interesting to talk about...How about praying out the gay? Noo...

Palin is such a bitch :] Pro-Life, Anti-Gay Rights. I wonder if she'd let fags adopt? Hopefully not. I mean, if they can't marry or have spousal rights, why let them care for a child? That child's life will be so much harder with gay parents than in an orphanage, hopping from one house to another! Oh, how about if a gay man fathers a child, he no longer has any parental rights on that child, since he is obviously incapable of raising a child in today's society. Once you bring God into though! If you let gays marry, you yourself will go to hell. Shame. You are all fag enablers unless you kill gays! Gays are bad for our society!! Don't you realize this? GAY MARRIAGE KILLED THE DINOSAURS!

On that note, for anyone who doesn't know me, I was being sarcastic. My mom already thinks I hate the gays, I don't need more people thinking that. Well...I do hate some gays. Like Perez Hilton and Chris Crocker. and Clay Aiken, but that's a different story all together. You know what really sticks in my craw? When people try to out others before they are ready. "researchers say that suicide attempts appear to be related to "'coming out' at a younger age, gender atypicality, low self-esteem, substance abuse, running away, involvement in prostitution, and other psychosocial morbidities." (http://www.healthyplace.com/Communities/gender/gayisok/gay_teens_suicide_attempts.html) Interesting fact. Yes, I do research every now and then so I at least SOUND credible. Hah. Still, I don't think it's appropriate for anyone to try and force someone to come out. I purely believe it is up to a person to decide when they are ready. Of course, if anyone knows me, I rarely ever fight for gays because I don't really...care...BUT I do care about issues that directly affect my life. Self-centered? Yes. Thanks. Anyways, I think I'm done now maybe...

Or are I? No, I'm not. College Applications suck ass. So does applying for a job. My nose is so stuffed up and my throat is so scratchy. I hate life. Excuse me while I go jump out a window. 'TIS THE SEASON TO BE JOLLY!!

*ahem* Anyways...

I'm sure you all know by now how well I can stay on topic. Be proud.

Should I do swim this year? I really want to...but I don't know if I want to have to deal with the team. I mean...would it be worth it? I guess I'll wait and see what happens. As of now though, I think I will. Well, I'd like to. I guess we'll see...but I'm definitely doing LAX though. Hopefully. Depends on how well Bio is going. I need a tutor for that class. Any takers? I'd also like a tutor in calc. I'm not doing bad, but I'm not doing phenomenal. Unacceptable. I need an A in that class if any class at all. I should be able to bring my stats, religion, and english grades up to an A by the end of the quarter. Psych and Bio should be B's by then. I WILL get a 4.0 at least once this year, I don't care how hard it is, or if it kills me. I WILL BE SMART AT LEAST ONCE IN MY LIFE. It's hard to believe we're in heaven. Your mind is in Disturbia. I hope my boyfriend don't mind it. I wont live to see another day, I swear it's true. You fucking that girl next door, what'd you do that for? Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me. What songs are those from? And...GO!

I hope no one reads this. Hah. I like to talk about nothing a lot. Get on that. Smack that ass. I'd tap that shyt. I'm bored. I can't believe it's 5 already. I need to do my Bio write up. Fuck. I hate Pre-engineering! It's so stupid. Ugh. Anyone wanna walk with me wednesday? I hate walking alone, it's so boring =\

Anyways. You're all gay. Fuck you. Look up Colton Ford or Cazwell. New favorite singers. Not really. Hah, but they are pretty amusing. God, I'm sorry, that was a lot longer than I thought it was going to be...*hug*

Ever wanted to hide in the dark?

I have never, EVER felt like this. All of a sudden life doesn't seem that great. I'm losing people and I don't like it. This is pretty much it. Someone just told me I'm too weak to be gay. I am. There's no way I can continue like this. So I don't like people touching me in public. So I feel sick when I see a little girl point at me and tell her mom there's a fag behind them. I'm weak, I get it. I'm not the best person. I'm weak. Too weak to do anything to change my life. Too weak to end it. I'm just swirling in the desires of a gay man in a straight life. I'm just happy I have support from friends. Since I don't have family, friends are all I have left. I don't have understanding friends, but they're all I got.

Lord, grant me the strength.

D:

My Sandman, something something, make something something something....


EXACTLY! I had a fun night last night...ask me what happened ;D

Gosh, that is sad

So, why is it that I just find men in their 30s to be so unbelievably attractive? It's not much fun because they are all like...10 years older than me. It sucks. When I Get older though...ooooh yeeea ;]

No, but seriously, I hate the dentist. That pointy stick thing they shove between your teeth? Not fun. And my teeth are really tight on the bottom, so they basically kill my mouth while trying to clean it. Fucking hurts like hell. The dentist was cute though.

It;s hard to concentrate when my cat is going ape shit crazy whenever I make the slightest movement...Not to mention I didn't get much sleep last night. I slept over at Michelle's and slept in Alex's bed with Michelle. How does that make sense? I'm hungry too. I wasted my money on chinese food and now I'm broke. There's nothing to eat in my house and I'm starving!!!

I finally get to play tennis again today. I'm so excited. You do not know how much I love to play tennis. I just wish I had someone to play with that was at the same level as me. Most of my friends never played before so they all suck. Except for Chantal. She's really good. I'm going to play with her later today hopefully.

Which brings me to another thing. What the hell is up with the gas prices? During summer nonetheless. I finally get the freedom to go places and I'm stuck home becuase of the price of gas. I hate it. Annoying as hell.

I have a major headache from lack of sleep so I'm going to go get hopped up on drugs. And by drugs I mean Benadryl. I lied. I got up to see how it was spelled and found out we have motrin. Woohoo.

Porn ftw. :]

Very...very short post

I might actually update like...more than once every 5 months soon. But I doubt it. I've been really busy with school and Lacrosse...actually, I'm almost late for Lacrosse...>.> Goddammit, where are my shorts?

Anyways, my last game is Thursday at the CAT at 7:15, so if you want to come see me beat down people with my tiny stick, come please. It's senior night and I actually want a big crowd for them =\ But, monday next week, I am DONE with Lacrosse for a little under a year...>.>

I can't wait till tennis starts, like, for real. I love tennis. I haven't gotten to play it much lately and it bugs me.

I had a scary dream about zombies last night...it had a lesbian in it...(I round up from 50% :P "House" makes me lulz)

Dairy Queen

That explains it all D: