Friends

So, my birthday was yesterday. I'm 17 now. I don't feel anything different about myself. In another year I'll be 18 and I'll finally stop growing, and I'll be looking at colleges, and worrying about my grades, and being angry at myself for having bad grades and not doing well on the ACT and the SAT. This year has been full of changes that have really opened my eyes. I finally see that City was NOT the place for me, and I finally feel like I'm getting something out of my education. I may not be that smart, but I'm smart enough to realize when I'm not learning. City just didn't provide the best high school experience, and I hate them for it.

I never thought I'd admit it, but I really do miss my brother...and that's all I'll say on that subject.

My Viola skills have been lacking as of late...I haven't been practicing enough...or at all some weeks. I need to seriously work on that. I CANNOT lose another career choice. My future is looking pretty bleak from this side...

I watched Silent Hill yesterday at Chantal's, and now, once again, I'm scared out of my mind to turn my lights off...and I'm home alone tonight...I need friends who live closer to me...and my cat doesn't help. I think she can tell when I'm scared and she'll just freaking run around making loud noises and scaring me. :<

Well, my first fear of going to Catholic Central has now subsided. I have not seen "Him" more than 3 times since school has started, so I think I'm pretty safe. For now. Ugh. I'm a horrible person :P and I like it

I can't find anything actually meaningful, so I'll stop and post again in 3 months...kidding...it'll probably be 6 with swim coming up :P